Jeremiah 29:11 and other stuff

I thought I had easy trivia, but no, apparently not. Disassemble? NO DISASSEMBLE was from the movie Short Circuit. No winners on the boobies prize. Kaye has seen the prize and can attest to its loveliness. And I even gave the name of the movie in my last post Back to the Future. I mean really people, come on! This one is SIMPLE. Had chemo again yesterday and it started kicking butt on the 100-plus mile drive home. I could barely make it in the house. Hair is almost gone. Thinking about shaving it just to get it over with. If u touch it, it falls out. My oncologist told me yesterday that after 4 rounds of what I am taking now (adriamyicin and cytoxan) I would be changed to a different drug. 80% of people on it have NO SIDE EFFECTS! So I have 2 more treatments before I get to it. Gave away all my bras. Guess Clayton was glad because I stuck them in his clothes so I wouldn't have to look at them. Losing the hair is much harder than I thought. I have probably cried more over that than the boobs. And I have ALWAYS, MY ENTIRE LIFE, threatened to shave my head because my hair was so thin and baby fine. Well, well, just look at me now. I was asked to participate in a clinical trail yesterday. They want me to walk 6000 to 8000 steps a day to see if moderate exercise will improve the outcome of treatment. I said sure, sign me up. Got a free pedometer out of it. Hurt my feelings when, after spending 8 hours at the hospital and walking from one end of creation to the other, I only went 2184 steps. This might be harder than I thought. Because I really have been sedentary since surgery. I attended a cancer survivors dinner a couple of weeks ago and spoke at it. Our local Relay for Life event is this Friday and Saturday, it goes all nite, and I have been asked to speak there, also. So, maybe, God is revealing part of his plan for me. I hope so, because I would really like to know. Philip bought me a "cheering up gift". It was really supposed to be for Mother's day, but he said I needed it now. It is a metal wall hanging with the following inscribed on it, "For I know the plans I have for you, saith the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future". Jeremiah 29:11. I think that says it all.

U want what?

Philip asked me to buy him two books. Now what mother could turn down a request to buy her science fair winning, medal receiving for solo performance, child down when they want educational materials? Turns out he really wanted four. One on chickens, ok I get that one. One on bird watching because "I really have always been interested in it". One on CHEMISTRY and lastly, a PHYSICS book. Thinking about changing his name to Albert (einstein, that is). I didn't even know what to say. So I just bought 'em. I don't think we have any bomb supplies around, but I know where there are a LOT of old cars if he is trying to build a time machine to go back to the future.

Continued

I saved this for its' very own post. In my goodie box, there was a homemade card from Joanna's baby. He had drawn a picture of his farm and told me to get better. IS THAT NOT THE SWEETEST THING? HE should get an A for art, an A for compassion, an A in every subject he has, and a vacation day! I keep it handy and look at it often. That simple drawing and sentiment means more than anything Hallmark could ever come up with. Thank you J!

EB

That would be Easter Bunny, the big guy himself. Sent me my very own goody box in the U. S. of snail mail. I was so excited. I knew it would be filled with the goodness of all things chocolate. Now, in this instance, I must say, that I knew this Easter Bunny had a different persona he operated under. Not to give away any secrets or anything, but it would be Joanna from Bugs in my teeth. It was my much anticipated GRAND PRIZE that I had worked so hard to win and I was ready for me some chocolate. But I did not rip into the box. I savored the moment as I knew I would savor the chocolate inside. Course, I had to go to the kitchen and find a knife to cut thru the industrial strength packing tape first. As I sawed thru the massive tape mountains, a delicate scent began to waft from the box. Let's just stop here and take a moment. THE BOX. I have never seen such ingenuity. This child had completely disassembled (disassemble???? NO DISASSEMBLE!!!) a wood fire starter box, turned it inside out, and re taped it to use for shipping. I will pause for you to absorb this or rofl.....Where was I? Oh yes, wafting scent....it was not the mouth watering aroma of chocolate, but a much more delicate, almost powdery fresh scent. I wondered? Does Joanna's house smell this way? And with all those boys, wonder what she uses that works so great. As I pulled open the flaps on the box, I knew that I too could achieve this freshness. It came from the scented tampons included in my prize. (Insert silence, crickets chirping here). I made the mistake of starting to snicker (no there were no snickers) over the thoughts going through my nose and this proved to be a deadly mistake. For you see, I was the recipient of a cruel, cruel, anomaly. The tampon box I received....DID NOT WORK! When my boys heard the laughter and giggles, they of course had to investigate. Now I will admit, this COULD, PERHAPS, MAYBE be just a little my fault. I will admit the only jokes around here being cracked have been cancer ones and some people in the house don't think they are funny.....It's not me...ANYWHO...they came running to see what was going on and immediately zeroed in on my tampon box full of chocolate. I should have taken a picture. The blue and yellow box was defenseless against the invading horde, kinda like when Aunt Flo is giving you a rough one, and paused for nary a second in the quest for absconding with their chocolate of choice before I beat them back with my trusty backscratcher (hey, it was in reach!). I pointed out the first line of defense to the enemies, er, my boys, and told them they were reaching into a tampon box. Andrew's reply? "SO? IT'S CHOCOLATE" You know, that just might be my child. Willing to do just about anything for some good chocolate. Now, let's see who paid attention. To be entered into the drawing for the fabulous fiberfill boobies, find that movie quote and name that movie! By the way, NOBODY has said anything about my new background. And I was so proud (sniff, sniff)...

Hurray for chemo

Got a good report from my surgeons. I am finally well enough for them to make me on appointment with the oncologist. Think about it. How bad is it when a step up is chemo? But that is where I am right now. Just ready to get on with it! I have always wanted to charge in and get things done. At school, if the teacher asked for volunteers, remember those good old days,I was the first one with their hand in the air. Usually the only one. I would get more nervous the longer I had to wait so I just wanted to get mine over with. Same thing. Poor Clayton. He had his bubble burst today. He was under the mistaken impression that the chemo would just be a one time thing. He did not realize it could be a multi month ordeal. The shortest course I personally have heard of anyone taking is 3 months. His cousin had 42 treatments (at a cost of $5600 EACH). But we aren't doing any quotes like "love is never having to say ur sorry". So I am really ready to find out how mine is going to run. Thought we had an appointment tomorrow, there was a cancellation, but dr. decided she would take off. OH WELL. They are trying to get me in Monday. Originally they said April 21 but pushy me, trying to get an earlier appointment!

NOW, just let me say I am sorely disappointed in my two readers. Check the comments on previous post. Do you mean to tell me that y'all just SKIM my post? You don't hang on every word, eagerly anticipating the next word? THEREFORE, i gave a VERY EASY trivia question. You just have to find it...

trivia

For all those, one, maybe two, who are holding their breath and racking their brain to come up with the trivia question answer...Tremors 2. Sorry there were no winners! Oh well, the prize will just keep growing. I can keep stuffing fiberfill into those fake boobies lol. Have a check up Wed. at UAMS. How bad is it when you are hoping that you are well enough for chemo? Chemo would be a step down the road, at least in the right direction, instead of heading backwards. But, GGGEEEZZZ. The bright spot in this would be that we have discovered a good chinese place on Cabot, right outside Little Rock, so I have a date with hubby before appointment, for lunch. We take the good where we can get it, ya know?

Im still here

Havent been online much due to the pain. Joanna, one less thing was Forrest Gump. And winner winner chicken dinner would by Guy Fieria, whose autographed pic I have. Clayton was on Diners, Driveins and Dives.
AND I CANT BELIEVE I WON! Yea for me! Keep waiting for the mailbox to tell me "I got mail". I know it's lame but gotta work with what I got. TOok a shower and found out why the pain is so bad. Incision goes from almost middle of the chest around and under the arm to the backside of the "pits". Yes, it is the pits. Been eating pain meds like m and m's. Stuff aint working. Going to get the drains out Wednesday. THey run from uner the breast, thru chest, down arm almost to elbow. And u can feel them. Feels like a garden hose inside. So glad I can share all this "critical, need to know information". (Joanna I will send u some chocolate if u know what movies that is lol)
Don't y'all love how this rambles around? I may go back and read these sometimes when I am sane, or at least not under the influence. For now I will just thank all my readers for sharing my ride.